A pleasant...quiet day...

     I feel much better today, and I am not in severe pain as I was before today. Although I was a little frustrated last night, Anisah had helped me overcome my frustrations by making me laugh; I had to apologize to her for some things that I said pertaining to motherhood and being a single parent for so long. I was at my wits end, and even though she said those exact same words to me, reality had to set in for me to realize that I may be taking out my frustrations on my children instead of addressing the person/s who caused the frustration/s.

     It has really been difficult being a single parent for a long time, and sometimes I do feel weary and worn out within my soul. I would never trade my children for any other children, and although I want them to be able to survive without relying on anyone else, I also want them to be able to prosper and enjoy being united as a family instead of being a single parent for such a long time.

     My children has made feel content and confident when it comes to them trusting that I can manage and maintain a home, and they appear to be proud that I am their mother. I fuss and get hyped when communicating with them at times, but I also remind them that I speak as if I am the mother (fussing) and the father (hyped) when maintaining order and control in a one parent household. I am not sure if they understand my reason or my purpose for "keeping them together", but they must always be able to focus on what's important when it comes to strengthening a family and growing as a unit.

     We may not always agree about everything, but I admire the fact that we agree to disagree on various topics and subjects when sharing our intelligence with one another. I am happy to be a mom, and life would be really boring without them.

A beautiful day...

     Today was an interesting day, and although I waited for over three hours at an appt. today, I still shook my doctor's hand with respect and regard to his apologies about being late. He took the time to explain and listen to the concerns that I had about his explanations, and he appeared to be so relaxed and not in a hurry that I began to become more relaxed; although I was in severe pain after sitting for so long.

     I began to appreciate this doctor because he did not rush me although he had many patients waiting to be seen, but because I was his first patient, he took the time to show empathy towards me and my concerns. That long ride home on the G bus was worth the trip, and when I rode past my old block (58th & Willows Ave.) and my Elementary School (Longstreth Elementary), it did not appear as dreary and sad as when I rode past them both a few hours before.


     In the end, I thanked God for allowing me to endure the discomfort that I felt, and I also thanked him for allowing me to be alright when overcoming my concerns for the day. I appreciate each day as if it is a new day and a new beginning, and even though some days will be difficult, I know that he would not place anything on me that I can not bare; if he brought me to it, he will bring me through it.

     Today was a good day, although it appeared to be difficult at first.