I feel much better today, and I am not in severe pain as I was before today. Although I was a little frustrated last night, Anisah had helped me overcome my frustrations by making me laugh; I had to apologize to her for some things that I said pertaining to motherhood and being a single parent for so long. I was at my wits end, and even though she said those exact same words to me, reality had to set in for me to realize that I may be taking out my frustrations on my children instead of addressing the person/s who caused the frustration/s.
It has really been difficult being a single parent for a long time, and sometimes I do feel weary and worn out within my soul. I would never trade my children for any other children, and although I want them to be able to survive without relying on anyone else, I also want them to be able to prosper and enjoy being united as a family instead of being a single parent for such a long time.
My children has made feel content and confident when it comes to them trusting that I can manage and maintain a home, and they appear to be proud that I am their mother. I fuss and get hyped when communicating with them at times, but I also remind them that I speak as if I am the mother (fussing) and the father (hyped) when maintaining order and control in a one parent household. I am not sure if they understand my reason or my purpose for "keeping them together", but they must always be able to focus on what's important when it comes to strengthening a family and growing as a unit.
We may not always agree about everything, but I admire the fact that we agree to disagree on various topics and subjects when sharing our intelligence with one another. I am happy to be a mom, and life would be really boring without them.
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